End of week 2

So here we are church mice and I'm coming to a close on week two of my project. I'm sad to say I've made very little progress.

I've started on my Herba Life but for some reason I've not really fully committed to this. I'm not sure why... I'm kind of battling a little bout of depression right now. I've found myself tired, and grumpy and making more excuses for myself than reaching for goals.  I'm also kind of doubting my ability here when it comes to really achieving my goals.  Ugh... I need to get out of my head.

The last two weeks have been challenging at home and at work.  Stress is prevalent which is normal, I really need to find my groove. I need to find a happy place, I really do... I know I'm depressed when I can't get myself to even crack open my copy of Vogue or Marie Claire, two mags the I LIVE for.  They've been sitting there in my messy room staring at me.

I think I've been going about this all wrong. I think I need to achieve the Organize My Shit goal before I really commit to my weight loss.  I can't have a messy head and a messy space there is no room for me to breathe or grow or change.  So this weekend I will be working towards the goal of getting my space clean and organized beyond just doing mounds and mounds of laundry.  

I need to fucking commit church mice, I really do. 

As of now I am just skating around the whole list and the work that has to go into it and you know what happens then? I look up and its July and nothing has been done.  I need to work towards ACCOMPLISHMENT not just make a list and stare at it and congratulate myself on a job well done.  I also need to stop dreaming of short cuts.  Short cuts that are unachievable   I need to reach for all the hard work that comes into play to accomplish most of the goals on my list. 

I think I'm afraid of the work, afraid of the possible failures and hardships that might come with making it through the next year.  And all I do is lose time.  I've followed this same pattern for years and years and here I am... Not where I want to be. I need to believe in myself church mice. I need to say FUCK YA lets go! So what's stopping me?  

OK so this weekend my goal will be to organize all the shit I can in the 60ish hours I have before work on Monday.  I'm going to get there.  There will be before and after pics and hopefully I can make sure to take a solid step towards that goal.  I will of course be updating you all so stay tuned! 

For now lets get thru the work day and make it count, then start the weekend and attempt to reach for adventure!

Have a good one friends and remember to share my blog with others! Together lets start a 365 revolution!