End of week 2

So here we are church mice and I'm coming to a close on week two of my project. I'm sad to say I've made very little progress.

I've started on my Herba Life but for some reason I've not really fully committed to this. I'm not sure why... I'm kind of battling a little bout of depression right now. I've found myself tired, and grumpy and making more excuses for myself than reaching for goals.  I'm also kind of doubting my ability here when it comes to really achieving my goals.  Ugh... I need to get out of my head.

The last two weeks have been challenging at home and at work.  Stress is prevalent which is normal, I really need to find my groove. I need to find a happy place, I really do... I know I'm depressed when I can't get myself to even crack open my copy of Vogue or Marie Claire, two mags the I LIVE for.  They've been sitting there in my messy room staring at me.

I think I've been going about this all wrong. I think I need to achieve the Organize My Shit goal before I really commit to my weight loss.  I can't have a messy head and a messy space there is no room for me to breathe or grow or change.  So this weekend I will be working towards the goal of getting my space clean and organized beyond just doing mounds and mounds of laundry.  

I need to fucking commit church mice, I really do. 

As of now I am just skating around the whole list and the work that has to go into it and you know what happens then? I look up and its July and nothing has been done.  I need to work towards ACCOMPLISHMENT not just make a list and stare at it and congratulate myself on a job well done.  I also need to stop dreaming of short cuts.  Short cuts that are unachievable   I need to reach for all the hard work that comes into play to accomplish most of the goals on my list. 

I think I'm afraid of the work, afraid of the possible failures and hardships that might come with making it through the next year.  And all I do is lose time.  I've followed this same pattern for years and years and here I am... Not where I want to be. I need to believe in myself church mice. I need to say FUCK YA lets go! So what's stopping me?  

OK so this weekend my goal will be to organize all the shit I can in the 60ish hours I have before work on Monday.  I'm going to get there.  There will be before and after pics and hopefully I can make sure to take a solid step towards that goal.  I will of course be updating you all so stay tuned! 

For now lets get thru the work day and make it count, then start the weekend and attempt to reach for adventure!

Have a good one friends and remember to share my blog with others! Together lets start a 365 revolution!

PREACH!

Alright y'all... I'ma lay it all out for each and every one of you.

I'm fat. Yep, it's true...

In 17 years I have put on 104 pounds. This from my prime 17 year old body which was fit and strong. 

I'm flabby. Yep, it's true... 

In 17 years I had two kids and neglected myself far beyond that which I should have. 

My measurements are far beyond what healthy should be.Yes it's true...

38 waist is not ok. Say it with me now...

A 52 inch hip/ass is not ok... I can't hear ya now!

A 30 inch thigh is?? That's right, IT'S not O. K. 

Brothers and sisters (and all the rest of you people) the risk of diabetes, stroke, heart attack, high blood pressure, joint pain, and being on pain medications because my joints need to carry around THIS body...

IS. NOT. O. K.

So... Today we begun to find our way home! Yes indeed we began to walk towards the path to health and nutrition, we began to walk the up hill road towards my goal of a 95 pound weight loss!

With the support of my nutrition Guru Wendy Hicks, support from my super hero of love and life M I began Herba Life's program today!

I know it will be hard. I know, it will be a quest. But just the dedication I showed today... The willingness to surrender to this process and the excitement I feel to get back into clothes I haven't worn in years is enough to make me jump up! And hold my hands up and say, YES! YES!! OH YES, I WILL ACHEIVE!

Can I get an AMEN!

That's it for day 3, please take time to share my blog and let's start a 365 Revolution together!!

Day 2

So my last blog entry SUUUUCKED! I really want to keep you all entertained so I suppose I have to step my game up.  Fair enough, lets get on with it.  

As Day 2 comes to a close I find myself at the end of a very strange weekend. I was fortunate enough to get 4 and a half days of vacation but I find that I'm anticipating all the things that will come this week at work. See, I love my job and that's why one of my tasks on The List is to get promoted this next year. I own my company and all the tasks that go with it.  I loooove going to work each day even on those days when I feel like perhaps a mental health day is in order, you know what I mean? Yeah that... exactly that. I go in each day ready and leave each day feeling accomplished. They aren't all wine and roses but I don't mind, its the firm and the people that I love. I'm lucky.

So to wrap up my final day of my extremely long weekend I find myself really looking at all the not so awesome things that happened and all the plans I had to change and all the last minute running around I did and I feel OK. I feel good about it actually, I don't feel that bitter sting of being short changed out of my weekend; instead, I feel like there were some rough spots but I got through it, and I couldn't have done that without my amazing fiancee M.  M is my hero, no seriously.  

So tomorrow as we head into day 3 I'll post something funnier and more interactive about my program and goals and nutrition regiment that I am starting.  I'll also be posting work out photos soon which are sure to be a laugh for the first few months.  Truth be told I'll be glad to get back to not feeling like shit each time I eat both in my body and in my spirit.  I'm ready to really feel good and commit to this stuff.  My friend Wendy who will become my ally in the huge task to lose 95 pounds is a beam of positive energy.  I sent her a list of goals for myself to accomplish and she is sure we can reach them all! I'm thinking by Christmas time when I'm posting pictures of holiday shit all over this here blog I'll have a more noticeable difference in my appearance.  By next Easter more so and by the end of My356-35 I'll be a better, healthier me :)

I'll also start posting wedding plan up dates on here soon as that is definitely coming down the line really soon!! Yep, cross your fingers, We're hoping to lock down a date for next fall! 

My project means a whole lot to me both inside and out.  Each item seems like it may not be a big deal but it really is a BIG deal to me.  Each item on The List is something that I really need or want to accomplish and I'm hoping with all you guys cheering me on I can make them all a reality! 

So that's it for day two... I hope this tidbit is a little more entertaining than my shitty post from yesterday (see what I did there?). This is not just a fun project to do its a 365 revolution! 

Don't forget to share my blog with others out there! Lets start a 365 Revolution together!